Chapter 2

Jacob POV:

The week fallowing mine and Edwards fight was hectic. At least it was for me, Edward spent most of this time on the phone talking to Bella. At first it didn't bother me because I knew that Edward needed this time to come to terms with his and Bella's failed relationship and the way things ended. I spent my week tying up loose ends. Edward and I were were both in college so I went down and transferred our transcripts to a college in Alaska that Alice suggested. I also handed in my resignation to my boss at the mechanic shop I worked for.

I also had to go into town and buy boxes to have our stuff shipped to the new house. I was in and out of the house everyday doing busy work getting ready for the move. Edward however hardly did anything. Every time I came home he was sitting in the same chair, talking on the phone to Bella. I went to bed every night alone. Edward and I hadn't spent a night apart in almost a year, and I was starting to feel lonely. I told myself that Edward needed this time to reconnect with her, but it still hurt that I went to bed alone and woke up alone.

One the third day I came home and found Edward still on the phone, and decided it was time to spend some time together. Walking into the living room where Edward was sitting on the couch, I leaned over and kissed the top of his head. He didn't even stop the sentence he saying to acknowledge me. Trying again I leaned down and kissed him right behind the ear. Usually kissing him their drove him wild, but he just leaned away from me and continued to talk. I was a little hurt, but I told myself to be patient. He had just gotten his family back. Determined to get some of his time I finally leaned over and wrapped my arms around his neck from behind. I just needed to feel the connection that we had. I was feeling a little abandoned and I just wanted a few minutes of his time.

With my arms around his neck, I gently took hold of his ear with my teeth and sucked his ear lobe into my mouth. I expected him to moan or turn his head and kiss me like he always did. What I didn't expect was for Edward to pry my arms from around his neck and stand from the couch. He didn't even turn to look at me as he walked to the sliding glass doors and out onto the deck where he continued to talk. Rejection burned through me all the way to my heart. It felt like he had slapped me, that probably would have hurt less then him rejecting me. The tears welled immediately and I quickly wiped them away. I refused to be some winy little girl who cry's every time their boyfriend ignores them.

Standing in the middle of the living room I watched Edward throw his head back and laugh at something Bella said. I hadn't seen his beautiful smile in so long, and it hurt that I wasn't the one who put it there. The goddamn tears started again so I turned and made my way to the bedroom. I finished packing the rest of our belongings as I tried to keep the tears at bay. Something inside, a voice in my head kept telling me that I was losing him. I tried to ignore it but it only got louder. When I was finished packing it was dark and I was exhausted. I needed a shower and a good nights sleep.

I walked out to the balcony where Edward still stood talking on the phone. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist and leaned my head on his shoulder. "It was good talking to you too Bella. I can't wait to see you." He said into the phone. My heart stuttered for a split second, and I winced from the pain that it caused when he said things like that. He hadn't even spoken two words to me in three days. My eyes started to burn and I knew the tears were probably going to spill this time. It sounded like he was finally going to hang up so I unwrapped my arms and quickly wiped the tears from my eyes. "goodnight sweetheart, I'll see you in a few days."

Edward turned to me with a huge smile on is beautiful face, and that was when I noticed that his eyes were pitch black. I sighed in defeat, because I knew that he wouldn't be spending the night with me again. I lowered my head and squeezed my eyes shut to stop the tears once again. "Hey baby, sorry I was on the phone for so long. Did you get much of the packing done?" My voice came out a little strangled as I told him yes. My heart broke a little more, because he hadn't so much as kissed me in three days and the only thing he wanted to know is if the packing was done. Edward walked past me into the house, and I fallowed him into the bedroom and sat on the bed as he changed clothes. Once he was done he grabbed his keys off the dresser, and with one brief look back at me told me he would be back in the morning, that he needed to hunt.

As soon as I heard the car pull away from the house I finally broke down. The tears came in waves, and the pain was so bad that I had to clench my teeth and ball my hands into fists. The part that killed me the most was, Edward was a mind reader and had always been able to know what I was feeling. If he had been thinking of me or paying attention at all he would have known that I was dying inside. He would have known that I needed him. Crawling up on the bed, I buried my head in the pillow and cried myself to sleep.

Two days later found Edward and I boarding a private Jet that Carlisle had sent for us. Nothing had changed in the last two days between us. Edward didn't lay with me as I slept, he didn't kiss me or hug me or even pay much attention to me at all. We talked occasionally as we packed the rest of the house. When the moving truck arrived to drive our belongings to Alaska, we silently carried every piece of our lives together and put them in the truck. My heart ached every single second, but I refused to let myself cry anymore. I sort of shut down, much like Bella had done when Edward left her to make her safe.

The plane ride was only a couple hours, but I slept almost the whole way. I woke up to Edward shaking me gently awake. When I opened my eyes his face was only inches from mine. "wake up sleepy, were here" he said with his beautiful crooked smile. For a split second I thought he was going to lean in and kiss me liked he used to every morning. His eyes stayed locked on mine, as if he were searching for something. I smiled lovingly at him and started to lean in, but abruptly he stood and started gathering up the things he had brought with him on the plane. Clamping my eyes shut, I set my jaw to fight back the emotions that were threatening to overtake me.

After gathering my I pod and carry on bag, Edward shockingly took my hand and we left the plane. We were met on the tarmac by the whole family. I had to smile at their excited faces. Even Rosalie looked excited to see us, well not me, but probably Edward. When we got close enough Edward dropped my hand and embraced his father in a tight hug. Alice almost knocked me over as she flew into my arms. I had to drop my bag and wrap my arms around her as I stumbled back a few steps. Everyone chuckled at my shocked face as Alice wrapped her little arms tightly around my neck. "Welcome home Jake" she whispered In my ear. Suddenly I was overcome with emotion and my throat felt thick. I had had my emotions pushed so far down in the last week with the way Edward was acting, and when Alice lovingly welcomed me home, my emotions sprung the surface. "thanks Ali" I managed to get out with a shaking voice. Esme was the next to step up and gently wrap me in a hug. "Welcome home sweetheart" she said with a proud smile.

From the corner of my eye I saw Edward wrap Bella in a tight embrace and swing her around. Her legs came up to wrap around his waist as they held each other. My eyes quickly lowered to the ground. Why did that hurt so much? I asked myself. Then I remembered that Edward hadn't so much held my hand in a week until today. "Jake, Dude, how the hell are ya?" I heard Emmett shout as his hand slapped me on the back. I looked up and tried to smile the best I could. "Hey Emmett, I'm good. How are you?" I could feel eyes burning into my scull and looked up to see Alice concentrating really hard on my face. Her eyes went to Edward, who still held Bella and then back to my face. "Were good man, been waiting on you and Eddie here to come home." he leaned really close and lowered his voice "I need someone else to wrestle with, Jasper isn't much fun ya know, being all emo and stuff." he stood back and rolled his eyes playfully and then a huge smile broke out on his face. I looked over to Jasper, carefully avoiding Alice's eyes to see Jasper glaring daggers at Emmett. I tried to smile as Emmett broke out in hilarious laughter at Jasper's face.

"Come on dude, you can ride with Rose and me. You guys are gonna love the new house." I picked up my bag and started to fallow Emmett to the car, but stopped short when I saw Edward and Bella holding hands, walking toward Carlisle's car. I tried to drag in a breath, but it felt like my lungs had collapsed. I had to bend over for a second with my hands on my knee's to catch my breath. The pain I had been though the last week in Canada was nothing compared to watching Edward hold Bella that way. When I stood up the car door was closed and Carlisle was driving away. I could not believe that he left me standing there without even telling me he was riding with Carlisle or even asking me if I wanted to ride with them. It was like he didn't even care.

Turning towards Emmett and Rosalie's car I started after them. I kept my head lowered as I walked by Alice and Jasper who still stood in the same spot. When I passed Jasper I heard a small grunt and turned to see Jasper bent over, and his hand clenching his stomach, like he was trying to hold himself together. His face was contorted in pain. I was confused for a second and then remembered that Jasper felt emotions. Quickly I almost ran to the car and jumped inside. That was just what I needed, Jasper knowing that I was hurting so bad. I was going to have to keep a better reign on my emotions.

The ride to the house took about an hour. Rosalie drove and never once looked or even spoke to me. Emmett filled the quit by telling me about the house, It sounded really beautiful. Each couple had their own bedroom and bathroom. Emmett told me that Esme was looking forward to putting the kitchen to use. She had stocked the kitchen with all kinds of food and drinks she could find. Normally just hearing about food made me hungry, but this time it didn't. Actually I hadn't eaten in two days. Normally Edward would freak out if I didn't eat every few hours, but never once did he notice me not eating the the last two days.

The sky was dark, and I was exhausted. Emmett had gone quiet and Rosalie turned on the music as I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the window. She seemed to know that I needed some quiet time. I would have been shocked by her being nice, but I was too numb to feel anything at this point. When we pulled up to the house Alice and Carlisle's car's were already there and everyone was inside. My body was sluggish as I climbed from the car and walked into the house. Alice and Jasper were sitting on the couch watching the Huge flat screen TV on the wall. Alice gave me a sad smile and Jasper leaned into whisper something in her ear. I didn't see Edward or Bella anywhere as I looked around the spacious house. Esme and Carlisle greeted me at the door and quickly gave me a tour of the house. The bedrooms were huge and each bathroom had a tub big enough for two. When Esme let me into my room I was shocked. The room was huge. There was a fireplace at the end of the king size bed. The back wall was all glass, and the view of the Forrest was beautiful. The deck wrapped the whole way around the house and each bedroom had sliding glass door's. "wow" was all I could muster as I looked around.

"Are you hungry dear?" Esme asked after I set my bag on the bed. I was a little hungry, but I just wanted to be alone for a while. "um...no thanks, I think I just wanna lay down for a while." She smiled sweetly and turned for the door. "Esme" I called after her. She stopped and turned around. "Um...do...do you know where Edward is?" she looked thoughtful for a second and then nodded. "Yes, I think he mentioned something about hunting with Bella." I tried to keep the pain off my face as I looked down and nodded. "would you like me to have him wake you up when he gets back?" she asked. I shook my head without looking up. "No, that's alright, thank you anyway though." She stepped forward and placed her hand on my cheek. I looked up and her eyes were so caring that I almost lost it. I will not cry in front of her. I told myself. "Sweet dreams dear" she said and then turned and left. The door closed just as a tear slipped down my cheek. He left to hunt and didn't even wait for me to get to the house. A week without him, The way he held Bella at the airport, and leaving to hunt without telling me. All of it hurt so bad that I thought my chest was going to explode.

After changing into pajama pants and brushing my teeth I crawled in bed. I thought back to the last time Edward and I had made love. We were so happy to finally have a free night from my work schedule and school. We decided to have a date night at the movies, and even thought it didn't go as planned, we still ended up making love. Edward was almost giddy after I explained that Bella was changed and living with his family. He held me all that night, and when Bella called the next day, that was when this whole thing started.

Suddenly I shot up in bed. Oh god. It was so simple. It was right in front of my face this whole time and I hadn't even considered it. The talk we had after the fight, the three day phone call, the hug, and the hand holding. Edward wanted Bella back. How could I have missed it? She was a vampire now. She was his equal, she was strong and fast and beautiful. Of course he wanted her back, why wouldn't he? They were finally free of forks, and her parents and the pack. Nobody stood in their way, not even me, because Edward had shown me in the last week that he had given up on us. I flopped back on the pillow and covered my face with my hands. I started crying angry tears then. I had given up everything to be with him. I gave up my father, and my pack and my home, and yet I couldn't bring myself to hate him. I was so incredibly in love with him.

I fell asleep with tears on my cheeks, and woke up some hours later with tears still falling. I woke up to sounds coming from outside the door to my bedroom. It was a whispered conversation.

"He's in pain Edward, what did you do to him?" I heard come from Alice.

Edward chuckled then "Don't be silly Alice, Jake is fine, he is just a little tired from the move he will be fine"

That hurt, because obviously I wasn't fine and he hadn't even noticed.

"Oh really Edward, then how come when you and Bella skipped off to the the car at the air port holding hands, that Jasper almost fell over from the pain coming from Jake huh? Why did his face look like he had just lost his dog when Bella wrapped her legs around you? Why did he spend an hour crying after Esme told him you left with Bella to hunt and didn't even wait for him to get to the house?

Silence.

I was a little shocked. I had spent all of 5 minutes with Alice on the tarmac at the airport and she knew everything I was feeling. I spent a week in pain with Edward, my imprint and he was oblivious.

"Jasper said he could feel the pain coming from him before you even got off the airplane Edward. Tell me something, What was Jake doing while you were on the phone for three days with Bella?

Silence again.

Alice was getting angrier by the minute, and her voice was getting higher.

"Sounds to me like you need to spend a little more time on your relationship and a little less time catching up, because let me tell you something Edward. I had some visions while you were hunting and not all of them end with you and Jake together."

My breath caught and my heart stopped. He was going to leave me. He was going to go back to Bella. Alice could see it, just like I could. I could feel the sob about to come out so I buried my head in the pillow, but of course they could hear it. The door flew open and instantly Edward was on the bed. I was laying facing the door, so I turned my body away from him. Edward gently laid his hand on my arm, but I shook it off.

"Baby, I'm so.."

"Go away Edward" I cut him off. I didn't want his apologies, it was too late.

"God Jake, I wasn't even thinking. I've been so stupid..." his voice started to crack, which only made me angry.

"I said go away Edward" I said into the pillow.

"Baby, please let me explain...It's not what you think"

He tried to lay down behind me and wrap his arm around me, but I was too angry. I threw his arm off of me and stood from the bed. I walked over to the dresser that all my clothes had been put in and started to pull on some jeans. I started to put a shirt on before Edward snatched it from my hand. I hadn't phased in almost a year, but I was pretty goddamn close right now. Edward must have heard that and took a few steps back.

"I don't want you to leave Jake, I want to talk to you. Please."

I didn't want to have this conversation in the house where everyone could hear it, but it looked like I had no choice.

"No Edward, you don't get to talk anymore. You haven't so much as touched me in a week, and after a three day phone call the only thing you can say is 'is the packing done yet?' What the hell is that Edward? Then you leave me standing at the airport without so much as a glace back to see if I was OK. Then your gone before I even get here. I was so exhausted after the flight that I just wanted you to hold me."

I had to look at the ceiling to keep the goddamn tears from falling. God, when did I turn into such a girl? Edwards face was...well it was a lot of things. He looked shocked, guilty and sad at the same time.

"Did you know that I haven't eaten in three whole days because this has all been eating at me? I have been trying to figure out what I did wrong, If I somehow pushed you away. I have cried alone in bed more then I have ever cried in my life. I'm done Edward. I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of waiting to maybe get a small piece of your time."

Alice stood in the doorway looking sad. She nor Edward said a word as I picked up the carry on bag I used on the airplane and pulled clothes from the dresser and put them inside. Edward stood frozen as I walked to the door and hugged Alice. I turned to see that Edward's head was bowed and his eyes were shut.

"You have what you need now Edward. You have your family back and you have Bella."

I took a deep breath as my bottom lip trembled.

"You can finally stop feeling bad for hurting Bella, and have that life you always wanted."

I looked to Alice, who had her face in her hands and back to Edward who was now looking at me.

"I love you. Goodbye" I said, and then made my way past Alice and down the stairs. The rest of the family stood in the living room. Emmett was looking at the floor, with his arm around Rosalie. Carlisle stood in front of the fireplace holding Esme who's head was buried in his chest. Bella sat on the couch with her head in her hands. Her shoulders were shaking and I could tell that she was crying. Alice had fallowed me down the stairs and made her way to Jasper standing by the kitchen door. I could hear her sniffling as she too buried her head in his chest.

"Um...is it OK if I go back to the cottage in Canada to stay until I can get on my feet?" I asked Carlisle.

"Of course Jake, that cottage is yours and Edward's, but I wish you would just stay here. We all want you to stay. We build this house for all of us to live in, that includes you."

Looking around Everyone was looking at me but Bella. She still sat crying on the couch. I wasn't sure if she was crying because I was leaving or because she thought she had destroyed my relationship. I guess it was only fair because, after all I had been the one to take Edward from her.

"I'm sorry, I can't. Could someone give me a ride to the airport, I have enough money from my job to get a plane ticket."

Emmett let go of Rosalie and stepped up. But, before he could say anything everyone jumped as we heard a large crash from upstairs. Edward was the only one upstairs and I knew how bad his temper could get, I just hoped he didn't destroy the house. Carlisle let go of Esme and made his way to the stairs.

"Emmett please help me calm Edward down. Rosalie please take Jake to the airport"

Carlisle and Emmett disappeared up the stairs just as something else crashed upstairs. Rosalie to her credit didn't scowl or roll her eyes at me. She simply picked up her keys and walked out the door. I said a quiet goodbye and gave hugs to Alice and Esme. Rosalie was waiting for me in front of the house. I climbed in and soon we were speeding down the road for the airport.

The drive was very soothing. Rosalie knew I was in pain so she didn't talk. Like before she turned on the radio very low and just drove. Half way there Rosalie's phone rang. She had a short conversation with who I assumed was Carlisle and then hung up. Soon we pulled up to the same airplane that flew Edward and I to Alaska. This was the Cullen's private jet.

"Carlisle said to have a safe flight and to give you this."

She pulled out a credit card and handed it to me.

"Carlisle said you are family, and we take care of our family."

I gave her a small smile and took the card. I had no intentions of using it, but I didn't want to make her feel bad.

"thanks Rosalie" I said getting out of the car. "Be safe" She said and then she drove away.

Five hours later I was walking into our now empty cottage. The couch and bed where the only things still inside. I was glad the bedding was left on the bed. Luckily some of the towels on the shelf in the bathroom were left so I could take a shower. I badly needed a hot shower and about two days of sleep. I still felt pain in my chest every time I breathed telling me I was suppose to be with my imprint and I missed Edward like crazy. But, I decided it was time to be a man and step up. I would get my job back and get back in school, I would stand on my own two feet.

I allowed myself this one last night to cry and to hurt for Edward. Memories of our first kiss and the first time we made love on this bed ran through my head. Our first date, our first fight, The dinner he made me after I aced my first semester of classes. I thought about all of it. We had come so far and done so much in just over a year. The honey moon was over though, and the world had given me a huge reality check

I fell asleep finally, too tired to cry anymore.

The next morning I woke up to a banging noise. Sitting up in bed I listened for the noise again. I heard it again and noticed that someone was knocking on the front door. Pulling myself out of bed I pulled on a T shirt and made my way to the door.

Standing on my door step was none other then Bella Swan.

Chapter 1

Authors note: Warning this is a slash story. If you don't like, don't read.


EPOV

“You know what Edward, fuck you” Jacob bitterly sneered at me.

I watched as Jacob turned and walked out of the movie theater. Tonight had been going so well. Jacob and I finally had a free night to be alone together and decided to go to the movies, before I took him home to our cottage and fucked his brains out. At lease that was the plan.

Jacob looked exceptionally delicious tonight, in his tight black jeans and white t shirt. His long silky hair was pulled back to expose the beautiful bronze skin of his neck, that I spent so many nights nipping and sucking on. Unfortunately, it seemed that every person inside the damn theater had the same thoughts. I slid my hand into his and pulled him close to my side. Jake just smiled and wrapped his arm around my waist. He had no clue the dirty thoughts I was having to listen to. I was getting angrier by the minute.

When Jake and I stepped up to the stand to get him some popcorn and a soda, the guy behind the counter looked Jake up and down. “Damn, I wouldn't mind playing cowboys and Indians with him.” My head snapped up to glare at him. He managed to blush a little before taking our order. My hold on Jake once again tightened. Jake turned to look at me, as I was still glaring at the asshole behind the counter. Realization finally flashed in his mind that I was hearing things that I didn't want to hear. He wrapped both hands around my waist and kissed me. “baby, calm down, I only love you. Just try not to listen” Jake whispered in my ear. With a tight nod, I took Jake's hand and pulled him away from the concessions stand.

I never considered myself possessive. Bella told me once that I could be a bit over powering when jealous. Of course, she also called me an asshole when I left her for Jake. Walking down the long hallway to find the right door to our movie, I noticed a man walking toward us. I couldn't read his mind very clearly, he seemed to be a little drunk and had a small smile on his face. When he got closer I could tell he was looking at Jake. Than his thoughts turned to himself and Jake naked in the shower. I stiffened. I could feel my temper rising once again. I looked at Jake who was paying no attention, he was holding my hand and drinking his soda with the other.

The man was clearly trying to get Jake's attention, but it didn't work. We kept walking, and I hoped he would go away before I had to kill him. The guy didn't seem to notice the murderous scowl I was giving him, warning him to go the fuck away. When we got closer and were just about to pass him by, he took a step to his left, right in front of Jake. We had to stop walking as to not run right into him. Jake finally looked up at the guy who was smiling. His eyes then flashed to mine and then back to the jackass blocking our way.

“Hi, my name is Tony.” The guy said holding his hand out to Jake. Timidly, flashing his eyes once again to me, Jake let go of my hand to shake his. “uh...hi, I'm Jacob, and this is my boyfriend Edward.” The mans eyes didn't look my direction, they stayed on Jake's body. Flashes of a motorcycle played in his mind, Jake bent over it screaming his name as he took him from behind. “Your really cute, do you think I can get your number?” I grabbed Jake's hand and yanked him back toward me. I must have yanked a little too hard, because Jake stumbled and fell against my body. I caught him and steadied him, but his popcorn slipped from his hand and tumbled all over the floor.

The idiot still stood there, laughing at us now. Jake looked up at me and then down to the floor. “What the hell Edward” He said angry now, but things were about to get much worse. “It's OK baby, I'll pick it up for you. I'll even buy you a new one, if I can have your number.” That was it, this jackass needed to be taught a lesson. Stepping around Jacob, I grabbed the guy by his shirt and slammed him against the wall, not using my full strength. I didn't want to kill him, but I wanted to make my point clear. “Listen very closely. Turn around, get on your shiny motorcycle and leave, before you really make me angry.” His eyes were large with fear, as a small growl erupted from my chest. I pulled him forward and pushed him toward the door, where he promptly fell on his ass.

Scrambling to his feet, he ran for the door. I was so angry that I had to close my eyes, and clench my hands to calm myself down. Slowly I turned around, only to be met with seething eyes on Jacob's beautiful face. He was angry with me. “What is your problem Edward? You didn't have to scare the shit out of him.” he all but screamed at me. “I'm sorry baby, but you didn't hear the things he was thinking of doing with you” Jake's eyes narrowed even more. “I can't believe that he asked for your number, knowing I was your boyfriend” I stopped, grinding my teeth together. I really should have killed him

“You know what Edward?” Jake shouted at me now. I turned trying to read his thoughts, but all I could hear were bad words and anger at me. “I love you, but I am not your property. You don't own me. I know he was being a jerk asking for my number in front of you, but I can take care of myself. I don't need you to defend me, and better yet, I don't need you making me look like I'm a defenseless girl.” I took a step toward him and reached for his hand, but he pulled his hand behind his back and backed away.

“Jake, I'm sorry. He just made me angry, and when you didn't say anything when he asked for your number, I just thought I would get rid of him myself.” Jacob snorted and slowly shook his head. “You know Edward, Bella told me once that you were a little Jealous around others, but this is...” He waved his hand at the floor where his popcorn had fallen. “This is beyond Jealous. You didn't even give me a chance to defend myself.” I could feel my anger boiling over now, but he continued.
“Do you know what it's like for me to be with you? Everywhere we go girls flock to you. Do you see me embarrassing you in front of a theater full of people? or threatening girls who find you attractive? No, you don't”

I knew he was right. Bella and I had had this fight many times, and more times than I can count since getting together with Jacob. It was hard for me to hear other people thinking vulgar things about the one I love. I had been alone for so long, I didn't know how to properly be with someone. Jacob's face softened a little bit as he continued. “Edward, I love you. I'm not going to leave you, but you have to let me live my life. You have to let me have a voice. I could have told that guy to go away without scaring him half to death. I'm not defenseless...Edward, I'm not Bella.” I couldn't help myself as my anger flared again. “How many times are you going to throw her in my face?” I growled at him. I automaticly regretted my tone as Jake's eyes narrowed with his own anger. “You know what Edward, fuck you” he sneered at me and turned to walk out of the theater.

Sighing heavily, I pinched the bridge of my nose. I don't know why the mention of Bella's name always brought my anger to the surface, but it was quickly becoming a problem between me and Jake. This is the first time though that he has walked away from me. I still felt like a complete failure for what happened with Bella. A week before our wedding, Jake came over to Bella's house to no doubt drive me crazy. The minute he walked in the door he grabbed Bella in a full on bear hug, and smugly smiled at me, to see my reaction. Very quickly though, his smile faltered, and his eyes bulged out of his head. My brow furrowed, because at that moment his mind went blank. For a long moment he stared at me, and when his senses came back, he turned and ran out of the house.

Two days later, Bella called me crying, telling me to come and get her from the boundary line to La Push. I was angry, and broke all the speed records to get to my Bella. I took her home where she explained to me that Jacob had imprinted on me. She cried and begged me not to leave her. I held her tight all that night, as she slept in my arms. I could hear Jacob running around Bella's house in wolf form. This time he wasn't there to protect Bella from me. He was there to see if I was going to stay with her. At the time, I was angry. I had no intentions of leaving Bella. We were getting married and had plans to change her after the honeymoon. My life was finally falling into place, and no dog was going to change my mind. Or so I thought. Jacob showed up at the wedding, and to everyone's surprise he was extremely civil.

There I stood next to Carlisle, as Rosalie started playing the wedding march. The guests stood and turned toward the stairs, waiting for my beautiful Bella to make her entrance. Out of the corner of my eye I could see that Jacob hadn't turned. He stood there in the front row looking directly at me. I felt a pang of something in my chest and quickly pushed it down. Jasper's head whipped around to look at me, and my hands started to shake. NO!!! I told myself. Don't do this to me, not now, not when I just found Bella. I heard gasps coming from the guests, and looked up to see Bella descending the stairs. She looked absolutely beautiful. Her cheeks were a rosy shade of red, her hair was pulled up into intricate braids, her hands shook around the bouquet in her hands. She was perfect. And, I. Felt. Nothing. For the first time in my long life, I was truly terrified.

I quickly looked to Jake. He knew. My lip started to tremble, and I tried as hard as I could to hold in the sob rising in my chest. I wanted to run, I wanted to stay, I wanted to be normal. I wanted to take Bella in my arms and love her forever, like I promised. My body was trembling as Charlie escorted Bella down the Isle, and gently laid her hand in mine. I looked into her beautiful eyes, willing myself to love her. It didn't work. I could hear Jacob's heart slamming in his chest, and I wanted to wrap my arms around him. Try as hard as I might to refuse it, Jacob had stolen my heart. Suddenly, and very quietly I heard Alice gasp. In her mind played what was about to happen. I winced and blocked it out.

“Welcome Guests” The preacher started. I had to stop this before it got any further. “Wait...stop” I said very quietly. Bella's beautiful brow furrowed. “Edward?” she whispered very softly, raising her hand to touch my cheek. I raised my hand to cover her's and held it there. “Bella, I...” I couldn't say it. I lowered my head and squeezed my eyes shut. “Edward, please tell me what's wrong” she spoke again. I raised my head and looked in her eyes. “I'm sorry” I whispered, and then my eyes went to Jake.

The rest of that day went by in a confused flurry. When Bella realized what I was apologizing for, she ran. Still in her dress, she got in her truck and drove away. I was cursed out by Charlie and Alice for hours. Carlisle was the only one who kept his calm. Politely, he explained to me that it would be a good idea if I left for a while. I was still considered a part of the family, but he wanted tensions to calm. So I left. The house still full of guests, and my family, I walked out the door and ran. I ran for two days straight. When I finally stopped, I was in northern Canada. I was in the Forrest surrounded by trees. I sat there for three days before Jake found me. Jake pulled me into his arms, and held me as I sobbed into his chest. Jacob told me that Bella had run away, and nobody could find her. He asked me to call her, to see if she would answer. On the first ring she answered with a “What do you want?”

We talked and cried with each other on the phone for hours. She was in a hotel in the middle of California. Eventually we both calmed down, and she told me she didn't hate me. She told me it wasn't my fault that I had fallen for Jacob, I didn't have a choice. She told me she loved me and she always would, but she wasn't going back to Forks. She wanted to get lost in the world, and find her way again. She made me promise to take care of Jacob, and I in turn, made her promise that I would see her again one day. She agreed and we said goodbye.

Even though Bella and I ended on good terms, I still felt like a failure every single day. I promised her happiness and I had failed. I think that is why I held onto Jacob so tightly. We only had each other, and I was terrified to lose him. We didn't go back to Forks to live with my family. When Jake made the decision to come and find me, he was excommunicated from his pack. Carlisle and Esme had forgiven me, but my brothers and sisters all hated me. They had all come to love Bella very much, and were looking forward to having her as a Vampire sister. Carlisle secretly helped Jake and I purchase land, and build a cottage of our own in Canada. That was a year ago.

When I walked out of the theater, Jake stood next to my car. He had tears in his eyes and he was looking at the sky. I tentatively walked to stand in front of him. His eyes met mine, and my heart almost broke in half. I hated seeing him cry, and knowing that I was the cause made me feel worse. I walked forward and leaned my forehead on his chest. I knew he wanted to be mad at me, but I was his imprint and it was almost impossible for him to stay mad. I loved him so much it hurt, and I knew I was hurting him by acting the way I did. Slowly Jacob's stiff stance broke and his arms wound around me, his cheek laid against my hair. “I'm sorry” I whispered against his chest.

Without speaking, Jake and I climbed in the car and drove home. I took his hand and lead him into our little house. We both kicked off our shoes, and I took him to our bedroom. He was still hurting and I needed to apologize. Taking his hand, I led him to the bed and we both sat, legs crossed facing each other. I took his hand between both of mine and started drawing lines in his palm with one of my fingers. “I love you” I said, still looking at our hands. “I love you too” he replied with watery eyes.

“I need to apologize Jake” I said looking in his eyes now. “I started thinking after you left, about why I get so angry when you talk about Bella. I started thinking about the wedding, and how much I hurt her. How much I hurt my family.” I looked down at our hands again. Jake had taken one of my hands now, and was rubbing it between his, like he was trying to warm me up. “I feel like such a failure Jake. I loved her, and I promised to love her forever. She was suppose to be a part of my family. I guess I'm just scared. I love you so much, and I don't want to lose you too. You're all I have left.” I was on the verge of losing it big time, when Jake pulled me into his arms. “Baby, you don't need to be afraid. I love you, I am not going to leave you ever.” I sat up and turned my body to face him. I took his face in my hands and pulled him forward to kiss me. “please make love to me” I whispered against his lips.

Jake leaned forward again to kiss me. His hands came up to my shoulders, to gently push me to lay back on the bed. Slowly, Jake used his knee to spread my legs, so he could kneel between them. When Jake needed to pull away to breath, his soft wet lips went to my throat. My hands wound around his back and under the back of his shirt. When my cold hands touched the hot skin of his back, he gasped and his body shuttered. I pushed his shirt up, and he sat up so he could pull his shirt off, and throw it to the floor. Jake's beautiful bronze skin never failed to take my breath away, and I couldn't stop myself from reaching out and running my hand down his chest. He shuttered again and moaned. His lips crushed back down on mine, as his hands came up to unbutton my shirt.

When the last button was undone, Jake sat up so I could take my shirt off and throw it to the floor with his. His warm hand pushed me back down and his lips closed around my nipple. This time it was my turn to shutter, as he hot tongue licked my nipple and his lips sucked it gently into his mouth. I hissed, and my back arched as his hand came down to palm my throbbing erection. “Please Jake” I moaned as his mouth moved to my other nipple to drive me crazy. His hand was squeezing and messaging my length through my Jeans. I was close, but I didn't want to come until he was inside me. “Baby, please. I need you”

Jake released my nipple and stood from the bed to remove his jeans. I unbuttoned my jeans and Jake helped me to pull them off, adding them to the growing pile of clothes on the floor. Both of us naked now, Jake took his place again between my legs. His body covered mine as he leaned down to kiss me gently. “I love you” he said against my lips, and then he deepened the kiss. His warm tongue pushed into my mouth, exploring and tasting me. I moaned and tilted my head to kiss him deeper. Jake reached for the bottle of lube on the nightstand. Squeezing a liberal amount onto his fingers, he pushed one finger inside me. I whimpered against his mouth, and sucked his tongue deeper. Slowly he pumped his finger in and out of me, preparing me for his large length.

When Jake pushed a second finger inside me, I moaned again against his lips. When he curled his fingers and touched the magic spot inside me, I pulled my lips from his and cried out. My head pressed back into the pillow, and his lips went to my throat, sucking and nipping, as he continued to touch and press the magic bundle of nerves deep inside me. God, he felt so good, I thought I was going to die. “Jake...please....I...I cant hold on” I begged. Slowly, he pulled his fingers from me and I whimpered. Jake sat up on his knees and lifted my legs so my feet were flat on the bed, and my legs were spread wide.

Jake took the lube and spread more around his cock , and some on my entrance. Sliding forward slightly, he positioned his cock against my entrance. Looking into my eyes, he silently asked for permission to enter me, just like he did every time we made love. I loved him even more for it. I smiled and nodded. Gently, Jake pushed just the head inside me. We both groaned, and once I adjusted to his size, he pushed the rest of the way inside me. He stayed still, as he laid his body down on mine and captured my lips again. His hips started moving very slowly, gently making love to me.

After a few moments of gentle rocking, Jake whimpered desperately against my lips. He was close. I was close too, I just needed a few more deep strokes and I would fall over the edge. Jake slightly changed his angle to brush against my magic spot. I whimpered just as desperately, and my body jerked. Our kiss turned more heated, but his speed didn't change. He entered me once, twice, each time hitting the spot. The third time was the charm. I ripped my lips from his and threw my head back. I screamed with my orgasm as Jake continued to push in and out of me, to prolong my pleasure. I clung to his shoulders tightly as pleasure shot through my body. Jake pushed inside me twice more, before he threw his head back and roared with his orgasm. I shuttered, and my eyes rolled back in my head as his hot seed spilled inside me.

Finally, we both collapsed in a tired and satisfied heap back to the bed. Jake's breathing was ragged against my chest. I wound my arms around him, holding him to my body as tight as I could without hurting him. We laid there for a long time not talking. Jake's breathing had evened out and I thought he had fallen asleep. His mind was in a state of bliss, so he had no thoughts for me to read.

Suddenly, Jake's head came up and his eyes met mine. “Your not a failure, Edward. Your loving, and beautiful and perfect, and I love you.” I smiled and reached up to touch his cheek. His eyes then lowered, and I could see worry on his face. His mind was still blank, although I could tell he was working really heard to keep it that way. Jake pulled out of me, and sat up on the edge of the bed. I sat up and scooted to sit next to him. “Jake, what's wrong? What are you keeping from me?”

He looked scared, but he took a deep breath and gave me a small smile. “I know for a fact, that your not a failure Edward” I quirked an eyebrow at him for him to continue. “OK, baby, please don't be mad at me, but I have something to tell you.” I tried harder to read his mind, to see what was making him so scared. “Tell me Jake” I said in an even tone. He sucked in a deep breath and blew it out loudly. His heart rate picked up. “Jake, your scaring me now. Please just tell me” He reached out and took my hand looking deeply into my eyes.

“You haven't talked to your family in almost a year right?” he asked. “Yes” I replied confused. 

“OK, well I have.” He stood then and started pacing, and then he started talking very quickly. 

“They moved to Alaska, about six months ago. Alice said it was safer to raise a newborn in Alaska, where there would be more people to help, and there aren't so many humans around...”

“Wait...stop Jake, What are you talking about? What newborn?” I was totally confused now.
He took another deep breath, and his heart started slamming in his chest. “This is where the mad part comes in Edward. You have to promise not to freak out.” I stood from the bed and pulled him back to sit next to me. “I promise I wont freak out, now, what is going on Jake?”

“OK, here goes. Bella went back to Forks six months ago. She didn't go home, she went to your family.” My eyes bulged out of my head. “Calm, Edward” Jacob reminded me. I took a deep breath through my nose as he continued. “She went to them, and told them she still wanted to be apart of their family. They were all so happy to have her back, they agreed. She moved in with them, and they made plans to change her. Her father and mother still think she is missing, and none of the wolves knew she was back.” I was too shocked to me be mad.

“Carlisle made the decision to keep this a secret from you. He didn't know how you would feel about Bella being turned, after you two didn't get married. She moved with them to Alaska, and Carlisle changed her. I talk to Alice every month or so, and she has told me that Bella is doing great.” Jake smiled a brilliant smile then and took my hand. “She has amazing self control, and has taken well to hunting animals.” I felt like my head was going to explode with all this new information. 

“They have discovered that she has a gift. She is what they call a shield” I gasped, and surprisingly, I smiled. That explains me not being able to hear her when she was human.

“OK, now that the hard part is out of the way, I have one more thing to tell you” I didn't know if I could take much more, but I stayed silent and listened. “The whole family, Bella included, wants us to come home. They miss you very much. They had a brand new house built in Alaska. I am suppose to tell you that they are very sorry for how they treated you, and that they all love you very much. They want to be a family again. They have Bella back, and now they want you too.” 

I felt like my brain was fried. I flopped back on the bed and threw my arm over my eyes. Jake chuckled, and lay down beside me. “What do you think baby?” Jake asked, obviously pleased that I hadn't freaked out after all. I smiled and turned to look at him. 

“Lets go home.”